I’ve received several emails and tweets lately asking about Phoenix – when is it coming out?
The answer is, “I’m not sure.”
My hope had been to release Phoenix in early February, but as December came to a close, I realized it wasn’t possible. The truth is, my fear of not completing the book made me unable to write. I would open my document and feel an overwhelming sense of suckitude.
Part of it was mental – my brain wouldn’t let go of discouraging words someone close to me in the industry had said: “I don’t think you can finish this trilogy.” This person, more than she knows, set me backwards for months on end.
The other part of it was physical. Since January 2012, I’d been dealing with a thyroid tumor that zapped me of all energy and killed my concentration. I finally had it removed in November, and my energy is nearly back where it should be.
Meanwhile, everything that I wrote for Phoenix didn’t do Lark and Beck justice. I knew it, and I’ll be damned if I’m going to throw a crappy book into the universe just to say that it’s done. Lark and Beck deserve better than that. But I just couldn’t write.
Then, in frustration one day, I opened a WIP I hadn’t looked at in over a year and fell in love. The words tumbled out of me and within ten days I had a working, yet ugly as sin, first draft. My writing mojo, after an eighteen month hiatus, came rushing back. So I decided to send Phoenix off to a few beta readers to see what they thought. Meanwhile, I began working with my cover artist to finish up the pretty parts of Phoenix.
So where does that leave Phoenix? It’s nearly done. It’s going to go through a massive revision, then edits. Instead of a February release, it most likely going to be April. And this is a good thing, because it will be a book I’m proud of, not one I tossed out just to be finished.
I’m sorry for such a long wait, but I think you’ll enjoy Phoenix much more because I took the time to do it right.